Love is All That Matters

i never asked santa for a car a bike or even a million dollars. i asked him for food, shelter and love. i never expected my life to be perfect or even to live the perfect life. instead i just wanted to live in peace with love neverending. the wake up and kiss me love. the sweet dreams baby thank God for you type of love. i cant for the life understand why what i want most im not having. maybe its the weddings, maybe even the funerals maybe its the husbands or even the lies deciet a lifetime of games im not sure but either way almost doesnt count. im tired of all the tears i cry at night. im sad by the pain that keeps me up at night. i miss the laughter the fun and the love i miss feeling like i was enough. my feels are real no one even believes they exist. my love is effortless. ive been lied to cheated on and disreprected. ive been misunderstood left and neglected. ive opend up my soul cried in arms so tight only to awake and realize im alone again the next night. i dont feel appreciated understood or in loved. i feel all the other stuff that you should never in this world. the pain is the real the heartbreak so clear in the end its just me. i dont have the dance moves i cant even clean constantly all i have is everything that makes me, me. i thought you understood i knew our struggles had finally collasped. only to awake to find out you had gone and left. the tears are coming now stronger than before as hope for forever escapes out the door. somebody asked me- what happens now? i cant even imagine from all the sorrow i cant even picture a how. i just dont know what else to say i cant even imagine which a what a way. love is all that matters someone said to me but they didnt understand all the misery. i love im still loving but you are happy living it up. what ever happened to the promises? what happened to forever ? how could you tell me it would be us until we never? never let another in never share our soul always ready to find ways to keep our love controlled. my pain is real my heart is broken. you have gone and left it open. if love is all that matters what the hell do i do now? ive loved uncontrollably to no avail