6pm

And I wish I were asleep.  Then I could down out the thoughts of deep disappointment.  Not in you as you are doing what I've allowed and told your was okay. But by my actions my weakness that has pushed me you this point too this day.  I am not angry at you or any closer to peace for me either...instead I am p i ssed that I am here again.  Giving in Love, where it's not mutual.  Where there us love but no but the same at all.  My self I would give if only you asked but damn it seems impossible to have love like that. 

6pm and I wish I were eating. Then I could have something to fill this void deep in.  My emotions betray me more then my body alone...as I feel all this making me not strong.  Damn...I just love you.