Mommy

Krystee asked me today what did I want to.do? She said I would forever be lost until.I figured it out.

I told her I only dreamed in your color.  I only saw through the light I wanted to shine for you.  I only wanted to.give you peace for once.  I wanted your laugh to be loud and tears no more.  All I ever wanted was to give you everything. 

Lord Jesus was merciful on you.  He gave you all those with the removal of your life. 

I can not sleep Momma.  4 years and I have never been more lost.  Check list.of goals complete.   But without new ones Not.living.

Only existing...

Its Me

Im the one that struggles are the very sight of you.  In my memories in my thoughts in my spirit is not guilt but strong memories of what we chose to do.   Its the thrill is it the irony of it all? I blink. I dont want my eyes to reveal what I see.   I dont wish my heart to betray out whats in. 

Limited Linked ... love lust lost Lone

So,  I must and do,  look away.

S.LA

It Hertz

Realizing the talk I gave to her, i was really giving to me.  Waisted years continously when all it takes is a commitment.   I blame me.  Inblame me for all the time i saw and chose not to see.  Lord, help me.