What. does it mean?

I the goal was to get me to not believe in fairytale endings but I refuse.   I still believe that love isn't charted to fail. That it does find its way to the ones it was destined.  I can't imagine a life without the hope.

 So many failed attempts.  So much excitement gone to waist.   Even I don't want my heart to freeze into the after affects of pained heart aches.

I can hear the whispers of those wondering about me assuming they know how I'm living how I see.  They made up their mi d's at work church even masked friends and obvious family.

I'm not giving up.

Fairytales

i still believe,  in fairy tale loves. i can see him coming to pick me up simply because he cant understand what life was like before me.  i can see him sending me flowers beyond our newlywed life.  i can see him asking me to be his wife.  wanting forever the bad the good the ugly just forever with me.  loving what i love.  i still believe in chivary the gentleman treating me like the lady i am.  i believe in falling asleep next to one another content being with one another.

my favorite song is the beat of a heart of the one i love. the one i adore.  i can see his smile as i walk in front of the room whereever he is.. i want to be taken to a dance or two where wwe can slow dance eatand enjoy our company. i want us to take dinner cruises. walks downtown or even trips  to the movies or beaach.  the idea is just enjoying one another.

is that a fairy tale?? what we have now? lets me know im waiting still.