I caught my reflection today, as i was laughing at a joke someone was telling. Looked very happy, except for my eyes. My eyes, are sad.
But. No one could tell. Im surrounded by people who dont know me. Nor care to get too. They like what they saw...totally blind to what we see
The moment right, the smile for me. The laughter is tight the laugh for me. The arms are stretched out the anticipation great all he want is my embrace. Maybe one day me. He looks for me. He isnt seeng al around him wondering eyes not my concern either. Instead, just looking for me. My smile. Yes the world wont change much nor will the extra stuff stop none of that matter though because im all he wont. One day Me. I wil be more than enough him thanking God for loving him so much to share, me. One day me.
Not today that i see. Looking around dissapointment in the trees the wnd blowsthe storms come all around me. Today, not me. He lying down with the Breeze.
Its me. Over here. Praying again for strength. I really thought it would be us making forever happen. I hate that i care even when its me carng alone. I am sad crying silently because it is right around the corner without me
O feel its m nno one ever sees lots of tears inside my soul. I feel im lost pleading to be found by the one who would love to recue my cry for the hold im seeking a sinceof reliwf not like the pipe fix from a cocain addit but the clear sync of estasy you get fromthe moment from which the holy spirit elates you. Im overwhelmed by it all as itry to make since of the senseless. Its not what has been or what is happening now that has me in a donward bound. Its whats ahead that makes me side frown. Oh how it feels to be trapped in my soul crying for peace hoping for control wishing i was seen as i am crying inside myself looking wondering what now?
